Friday, July 17, 2026
Grand opera at its best
Poem by Ibn Arabi
Sunday, July 12, 2026
Mitsi, our '36 Ford and my first trip to South Dakota, Colorado, New Mexico, Wyoming, Montana and Utah
Monday, June 29, 2026
Monday, April 6, 2026
"What a Fillip Hearing from You"
Sunday, March 22, 2026
Gun Running in the Peace Corps
a Jeep Up a Tree and under the Wave
Kramer Story
Friday, March 20, 2026
Spaghetti Story
Ketchup Story
Saturday, January 25, 2025
My experience as a member of a college fraternity at Hamilton College:
In October 1958 the Lambda Chi Alpha fraternity expelled its Hamilton College chapter in Clinton, New York, for insisting on a non-discrimination policy for admitting members. The national fraternity insisted that its members be Christians who are either white or native American. The expelled chapter reorganized itself as an independent society called the Gryphon Society.
Wednesday, December 18, 2024
Sunday, November 24, 2024
My memory of Bob Fry goes back to our camping days at Adirondack Camp for Boys. I remember singing in the choir of the Church of the Heavenly Rest. This was when I was 10, 11 and 12. We were paid 35 cents an hour then up to 65 cents an hour for rehearsals and church sessions. Bob was there, too, with the music directors Charles Walker and John Harms.
Thursday, November 14, 2024
Thursday, October 10, 2024
A Birthday
- Recently, I celebrated a splendid birthday occasion with my former law office partner (Oregon) and her husband (who accompanied me to Senegal). We were on the the coast of California at a delightful area known as Sea Ranch (above). She has the same birthday, day and year, as I have. We have been getting together every five years somewhere in the world for the occasion.
My fifth birthday remains vivid because a native American of the Lakota Sioux Nation, Chief Rising Sun, entertained at my party. I will be celebrating my 85th birthday (inshallah) with my former law office partner (Eugene Oregon 1980-1981) and her husband with whom I remain a close friend. She shares with me the same birthday, day and year.
Saturday, September 21, 2024
Thursday, July 11, 2024
My Friend Togwell Jackson
My Friend Togwell Jackson and his wife Chung-Ja::
Togwell and I met while we were students at Trinity School in New York City when we age 14 (ninth grade). I remember lunches at his home on Riverside Drive -- often a hearty soup prepared by his mother. My final conversation with Togwell took place on Wednesday July 3rd 2024, a day before he died and 70 years after our first meeting. He was a good friend. In recent years we had many long conversations, often concerning U.S. politics, particularly matters surrounding Donald Trump whom we both loathe. Togwell's sense of humor would always brighten my day, no matter how gloomy my mood might be; I am thinking of his dry wit now as I write this. He recently expressed a desire to continue creating cartoons.
Sunday, January 2, 2022
OPEN LETTER TO BACK PAIN SUFFERERS
In January, 1981, shortly after the law firm where I worked dissolved, as I was riding a bike through the streets of Eugene, Oregon, I stopped short to avoid hitting the back of a car. I felt something "go" in my back, but it didn't hurt then. A few hours later, I was in agony on the floor in my home. Shuffling and doubled over, I managed to get to the office of a sports medicine physician. He did nothing but examine me. He gave me neither medicine nor any physical adjustment - just told me to take it easy. This made me very anxious, since he didn't seem to think anything of my predicament.
At that time, I thought it was an isolated episode that would go away and not re- turn, for I had not experienced back pain for 20 years. My back was "out" and would re- turn to normal. The pain diminished, but persisted. So, I went to an osteopath, who gave me the physical adjustment I wanted and also a muscle relaxant. Now, I felt "treated." I relaxed, and after a few days of slow going, I was normal. I put the incident behind me.
But not for long. Several months after I returned to New York and my old job, I awoke one morning unable to get up. The pain was quite fierce. I at once identified the cause: raking leaves in the yard. This time I went to a chiropractor, who adjusted my back and took x-rays. The results were alarming and depressing. He told me I had de- generative disc disease and that the condition was chronic and incurable. But there was hope for a fairly normal life if I followed instructions and took care.
Over the ensuing six years, I went to a chiropractor every time my back "went out," that is, several times a year. Each bout lasted from three to twelve weeks. I could not do many things that I enjoy doing. Physical exercise was dangerous. Running was out of the question. Hiking was problematic; I worried I'd have to be rescued on some ridge in the White Mountains, as once I almost did.
Carrying, lifting, driving, even sitting in a theater became increasingly difficult, painful and fearsome. Doing research in a library was extremely uncomfortable - espe- cially standing in the stacks. Going to meetings anywhere that I did not have the right kind of chair presented significant problems. Every day I had to spend from a half hour to two hours lying on a pad on my office floor. I missed work several weeks a year and almost routinely had to leave early or arrive late. My life was carefully arranged to pro- tect my fragile back. Nevertheless, the pain became continual and worse around 1986. The doctors told me that I could expect a gradual worsening of the condition. I felt pretty bad since I was only 46. I wondered about what my condition would be at age 52 or 55.
During one particularly awful episode, I consulted an orthopedic surgeon, who paced, looked very grave and told me I would be in deep trouble without surgery. In des- peration, I consulted a neurologist, who assured me I could control the problem with cer- tain exercises and swimming. I followed his suggestions and swam 5 or 6 times a week, though I dislike swimming for exercise. But the episodes continued, fierce and lengthy.
One day in late '86, coming out of the courthouse in White Plains, someone asked me how I was doing. I didn't lie. She suggested I see the physician that she said had cured her husband of back pain, John Sarno. Dr. Sarno was a professor of Rehabilitation Medicine at the New York University School of Medicine. He practiced at the Rusk Insti- tute of Rehabilitation Medicine.
Dr. Sarno's theory is that except for rare cases, back pain is caused not by struc- tural defects in the back (which, of course, do appear in various scans). Rather, pain em- anates from the back, shoulders, neck or legs, etc., as a result of mild deprivation of oxy- gen in the affected area of the body. This condition is produced deliberately by the brain for the purpose of distracting one from repressed emotionality, including repressed anger. The name that Dr. Sarno has given to this condition is tension myositis syndrome (TMS). Thus, the tension that causes back pain is not tension of which one is readily aware. In order to sustain the deception, the brain associates back pain with various triggers, such as raking leaves or twisting - almost anything will do. TMS is a stratagem of the brain to protect itself from what the brain considers a threat of an overwhelming nature.
Curing back pain results when one rids oneself of the self-deception involved. Once one understands that the pain is harmless, because it arises from a stratagem of the brain, the syndrome loses its efficacy. What a pleasure it was to lose the fear of deteriora- tion and pain and to realize that I could safely resume all activities. I have done so and I have had no debilitating back pain since 1988, when I attended Dr. Sarno's program.
Dr. Sarno first conducts a physical examination and takes one’s history. If he makes a diagnosis that the pain is a result of TMS, the patient is asked to return to the N.Y.U. Medical Center to attend a class in which Sarno teaches how and why the pain is produced. It is the knowledge of how TMS works that dissipates the deception and hence the pain, which no longer can serve any function. I was examined by Dr. Sarno in Jan- uary, 1988. In February, I attended his lectures with about 50 other patients. Subsequent- ly, I attended several of his Tuesday afternoon seminars and within a couple months I no longer had back pain.
In 1988, when I was a patient and student of Dr. Sarno, he avoided the term “psy- chosomatic,” because, he said, that word was loaded with inaccurate meaning. He fo- cused on back pain exclusively and preferred simply to use “tension myositis syndrome,”or “TMS.” If I recall correctly, his treatment lectures and his 1991 book (Healing Back Pain) only tangentially speculated that TMS may be part of larger medical phenomenon. But with publication of The Divided Mind, in 2006, Dr. Sarno has produced a landmark work encompassing the field of psychosomatic medicine.
I think that Dr. Sarno’s work is profound. I urge you to read The Divided Mind, The Epidemic of Mindbody Disorders, Harper Books, 2006. Dr. John Sarno was a practic- ing physician at N.Y.U Medical Center’s Rusk Institute for Rehabilitation Medicine. He was also a professor of Rehabilitation Medicine. He died in 2017.
By: John Hand — johnhand@gmail.com
Friday, February 19, 2021
I read an excellent book on race in America entitled Caste, by Isabel Wilkerson. It got me thinking about my experiences of racial incidents. Here are a few of them.
Perhaps not today but when I attended college in the late 1950s, for many students fraternities and sororities were essential to the college experience and often a material element forwarding one’s career. They were not just places where we ate and slept — they were integral to the social life of the college or university. They provided their members with valuable contacts not only during college years but thereafter. They contributed significantly to the success of many of their members in getting good jobs and starting businesses in the years after college. They were also part of the caste system. I pledged Lambda Chi Alpha (LXA) at Hamilton College. There were a few black students in the class of 1961, I did not know any of them. One day in 1958, Timothy Scholl, LXA chapter president called a meeting to discuss a provision of the charter of the national fraternity: the policy barring black people from membership. I had not given any thought to race at Hamilton; the subject simply did not come up. We were unanimous in agreeing with Tim Scholl that we should not be bound by such a rule. We voted to extend membership regardless of race or color. The national fraternity revoked our participation in LXA and we became a local fraternity named Gryphon Society.
During my college years I had two other incidents that involved matters of race.
The late 50s saw civil rights activists marching and picketing against racist practices. In 1958 or early 1959, after we became a local fraternity, Tim Scholl again called us together, this time to go into nearby Utica and picket the F.W. Woolworth store because of its segregated lunch counters in the South. There was no reaction by the store manager or by the passersby as far as I remember.
The other incident occurred in 1965 on my way home by bus from a Peace Corps training assignment in New Orleans. I had to change buses in Jackson, Mississippi but there was something like nine or ten hours to wait for the connection. I checked into a hotel. When I got to my room I looked at the paper that came with my key and was surprised to see that I was a “member” of the hotel. I guess this was the way that the hotel thought it could evade the 1964 civil rights act prohibition on discrimination in public accommodations.
